Late night Longing

Sometimes when im still up this late at night/early in the morning i just wish there was someone around i could dress in a baby costume and smear peanut butter on their face while we drink tea and pretend we’re football players as we cry into each others arms before stabbing each other in places that are possibly but not necessarily fatal and then just lay on the kitchen floor and bleed out together holding hands till the sun comes up n just see what happens. ya know?